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Love itself is a curse

Every time this word comes to mind, I do not know how to describe it myself. At one moment I know what kind of meaning it bears, yet at the same time, the little hamster in mind stops abruptly. LOL do not ask me why cause I ain't have any idea how. It just happen in a way that I can not put into words. One thing to make it simple. We love our parents. We love our spouse. We want them to be safe. We will make every ounce of our muscle move just to make them happy. Heck, I will sacrifice myself for them. Why? it is because we love them. We care about their whole being. When they are sad, we will go around the world to buy a gift, a bags of cookies and chocolate to cheer them up. We will feel troubled if something happen to them that make us their main issues. We will be over worried if something bad might happen to them. I might be exaggerating it but still it do happen in our lives, right? What I wanted to say here is that I come to realize that love itself is a curse. Why? because it makes us do things that we are not capable of doing. Have you ever happen to be requested by your spouse in buying things that is beyond your wallet capacity? or ever happen to make things more easier for your relatives to enjoy their life in university? ever wonder what stuffs that you think is necessary but risky to be made and sometimes cost an arm and a leg but you never found it bad for you? Unbeknownst to you, it is a way leading to a cliff love. At first you might think that it is all right, meh won't be a problem at all, it is worthy, or 'I will deal with the consequences later' kinda words. Do not worry because that is normal for a human to encounter such things. I myself ever happen to be at that point. It really sucks. Cliff love is a phrase that I made for myself. It defines love as a very risky thing to be felt. I might say it is priceless because the things that we do to conquer such emotion fully are beyond words and acts. It is a curse that makes us bounded by the euphoria of feelings we felt afterwards. It ruins our mind to do stuffs that we think we could but apparently not, even in a million years. It pushes us to the edge of sanity. Until later we decide to jump not by our own will but from the idea we thought we would had, that would bring us to a place that holds contentment and peace. Put all that aside, love is too strong to explained. When you encounter this devil-like feeling, do not lose your mind. Buy things that your wallet can purchase. haha never try the shortcut like rob a bank or abducting someone else's kids. Lol that is way too insane pal. Be as happy as you can in your own way. If your spouse demanding those diamond things, well if you are one of those rich person in the world you will not find any trouble purchasing it, but if you are grouping in those average civilians, better save up your money for good. Life hold something that you will never know how and when it would happens. Have it in a good way. You get to learn how to live your life from the very bottom. Not every one get a chance for that. So cheer up! There is still someone up there who knows your own needs and wants. It is because He is the root of love itself.

"If you know the reason why you love someone, you are not in love" Unknown